*merry*happy*jolly*lovely*

from me to you, love.

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below was one of my favie childhood cartoons to watch during Christmas week.

so, since you're here now, at this stole-away moment on this special day,

take a quick viewing, to keep your spirit bright:

I hope you've received all you wanted today,

in addition to peace and love and laughter.

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now go, soak up more of your family, and I'll (hopefully) see you tomorrow.

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merry Christmas.

happy Christmas.

jolly Christmas.

lovely Christmas.

little *blog*GAME*SHOW* for X-mas Eve

three doors.

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door
number
3?
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[whoops! I forgot the delete the door knob. tee hee.]
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awesome.
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next?
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door
number
2?
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okay, so two *binos* down.
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what could be
behind
door
number
1?
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oh boy.
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three chubs:
small heads,
large bottoms.
Mr. Frosty // Mr. Fats // little Miss Sweets

staring out,

watching us leave.

merryChristmasEve, loves.

these two (in the middle & right) have been

the greatest gifts of the year.

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I'm thinking about last year's ChristmasEve,

and the sentiments I had.

Although this year's Christmas hasn't been as calming and serene and enjoyable as last year's,

I hold on to last year's post with the hope that the *dream scene* I wrote about will come true.

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tonight the *boyf* and I go to his family's annual ChristmasEve party in Brooklyn,

for the fifth time since we've been together.

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lobstah.

lechon.

secret santas.

midnight gift exchange.

filipinos galore.

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the only thing missing will be these craze-o's:

i kinda hope we see some snowflakes tonight, too.

...but not the *sticking* kind.

'kay. have a blessed one.

one-THOUsand!!!

this little

[sometimes pathetic]

freshman blog HERE

reached an

amazing

1,000+

viewers this weekend

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i'm unsure how or why

this happened,

but i'm glad it did
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to those of

you reading who

were part of that first 1,000

and

to those of

you reading who

are now part of that "+"

I

thank you

and

appreciate your presence HERE

...like, to the MAX

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to celebrate the

milestone

my *2010* is HERE

has

reached,

here are

some of my most shining

moments of

posting

that might

have gone a little

unnoticed:

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squirrel on a lunch break

[my favorite post EVER!]

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i'm Bart Simpson...

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to the *boob man*

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i'm losing the battle against zits

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blue pajamas

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saturday beach dreamin'

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haa haa!

i hope you enjoyed.

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thanks for viewin'.

even if only THIS post.

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Happy Monday. Make it good.

wow.

1,000.

*11/09*

hey, ya'll.

it's 11/07 today

and

in two days, imma be 26 years of age.

HOLY S**T.

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anyway...

...26 is not a major deal so something low-key and chill this year is in order,

but check out the e-vitation

I made for my big 2-5 birthday last year:::

haa haa!

we went dancing at this club BRANCH in the city one year ago today. good times.

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happy november 7th sunday, turkey basters. :)

"...however do you want me, however do you need me..."

i feel like the title of this post is addressed to God.

yesterday i proclaimed

that i needed to get

"...back to life, back to reality..."

as in this song

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i thought of the phrase,

then listened to the song

about four times,

and realized "Holy shit, yes!"

It is addressed to God & the Universe and my current state of being.
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it took me 'til yesterday

-- the 20th day of Sept --

to accept that it's Sept,

and that

SuMMeR 2010 is definitely

just memories now.

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i'm game to get back to reality,

in the form of:

subbing the for the next three days,

reading and researching and writing a 25-page thesis to focus on,

getting serious about the restaurant biz and making extra dough, or getting the F***OUT...

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...and all in the mix I'm thinking of

how to construct my Halloween costume,

being a bridesmaid to my best girlfriend,

her birthday,

my birthday,

eating right,

exercising,

caring for the *babies*,

being a good girlfriend,

creating a new template/title/awesome-focus for my 2011 blog,

adapting to the colder and colder weather,

what I need to do to sign up for even MORE school after this semest [seriously kill me],

getting a new iPhone [where's the white one, people??!!]

and

clothes clothes and more clothes.

[that last one calms me down.

like really and truly, outfit-planning is my escape.

am i alone in this???]

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oh, universe!

however do you want me?

in this state of *coo-coo, coo-coo*ness?

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if so,

then this

is

my

PLAN of ACTION:

preferably

wit'

these guys.
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i love those guys.

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*south*fla* recap - Part 1

i left for my

last-hurrah

of summer vacay to

*south*fla*

three weeks ago.

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sorry for the delay,

but here were some snaps

from the trip:

JFK airport had this great artwork in the bag-check area.

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our 11:00 departure

was *on time*

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the cute [overpriced] cookies in the airport

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my feets.

the rug looked like speeding planes in the night sky, right?

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after a not-so-relaxin' turbulence-filled flight,

sippin' on the G. Ale...

...we arrived.

these were the first palm trees i spotted.

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...and like i said i was going to,

i stared,

and

smiled,

and

appreciated:

see the palms in my sunglasses?

see my weird Kyra Segdwick lips?

WT...?

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also...you notice the *airport*fashion* talked about in this post.

tee hee!

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met up with *the*Grams*

while some people who read this might think

"LAME! Hangin' with your Grandmother? On VACATION??!!"

they would be totally wrong.

my Grams rocks.
plus, Tomas & I hung with my little cousin Claudia, seen here and here,

and my cousin Ryan who just recently came back

from Afghanistan and was discharged after several years

serving in the marines.

Nuts!

I was so happy to be with family.

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here,

we walkin' to the pool area:

[Claude, the*boyf*, Ryan]
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what's he got in that cup??

[hey, it's vacation...whadaya think??]

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POOL TIME:

above you might spot:

Grams & her yellow noodle,

scuba-Claude,

my cute navy&white polka-dot bikini,

my great*aunt Tina in her diva hat & sunglasses and classic 'Stan Laurel face'
&

Tomas in a state of bliss.

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us three girls went to a rock&roll show:

me & claudia:
she was excited to wear my skirt.
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this was my face in reaction to the boys not attending the show:

they didn't attend because of this:
[this was a mobile phone pic sent to me by Tomas]
Tomas couldn't get in because he was wearing shorts, not pants.
Grams insisted that he go back
to her condo and wear a pair
of her stretch pants underneath his shorts.
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my cousin Ryan refused to let him
go out in public like this.
he said Tomas looked like a Samoan Peter Pan.
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the boys didn't show,
and
us girls watched The Shindigs rock out by ourselves:
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after the show,
came window shopping.
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my cousin,
Claudia,
who's only 14 and already taller than my 5'8" frame,
should model, I think.
she's got that natural skinniness most models starve themselves to achieve,
and
can act as a perfect moving clothes-hanger.
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case in point:
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these crack me up.
she is such a sweet, kind-hearted person.
i'd like to think she got some of that from me.
:)
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back at the condo at wee hours of the night,
Grams was arguing with the boys about why
she couldn't see stars at night:
light pollution?
cloudiness?
who knows!!
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another
can't-be-overlooked
aspect
of the
*south*fla*
trip was the
yumminess:
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yes, the yumminess.

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Grams/Granddaughter & red wine & ravioli.

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i had me some happy memories on my trip. Thanks for viewing!

Part 2 [Date Night] will be coming tomorrow, so stay tune, loves.

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have a wonderful wonderful Wednesday.

oh, the *Swayze*

one year ago today -- our favorite actor

lost his battle with pancreatic cancer.

Patrick Swayze
(1952-2009)
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Bitt & I have spoke of your name on a daily basis since as far back as we can remember, and were hoping to meet you in person one day.
We are two of your biggest fans and will continue to consistently quote your brilliance.

R.I.P., Swayze-a-Roo!
Thanks for all the hard work that lives in our hearts & minds!
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a random as *fuck* post here ya'll, 'kay, got that?!?! sound like a plan, totally awesome planner...ramble*scramble*shambles...

i feel delirious.

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for the past two days

since my double on friday i've

had not one cohesive thought

i can recall.

it's all been a jumble of craziness like a

group of cracked-out piranhas to a cow thigh.

[no, i did not see piranhas 3D, nor do i want to]

[a cracked out piranha...

i have pretty much felt & still feel like that, above]

I

am one

big ball

of frustration, coupled with indifference.

It's like

I have

a raging locomotive

inside of me,

but

I'm standing perfectly still.

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there's no other way i could describe it really.

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this post is going to be

the randoms of my brain right now

'cause it needs to be.

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sorry if this bores you,

or gives you a seizure.
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let's start with the last thing first

and go in reverse.

rewind:::

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okay,

so thinking a relaxing

viewing of last night's

VMAs

would help

my

uber-neurotic brain as of late

was

a

COMPLETE MISTAKE.

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I felt

even more

mentally exhausted after watching,

but can't really pinpoint why.

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oh wait.

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oh yeah:

a fuckin' meat dress??
...and a meat hat??
i mean,
i kind of get it, i guess.
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VMAs, right?
Veal Meat Accessaries?
makes sense.
i mean, as much sense as she's gonna make.
i'm not sure if i'm glad she won.
i mean, i do like me some
rah rah rah mah mah, roma rum mah mah, gaga ooo laa laa
sounds in mah ear and mah body while dancing.

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Chelsea Handler was disappointing.
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Taylor Swift bugged me.
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Kanye, in that red outfit, with that douchebag song...
...i have no words.
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what I
thoroughly did enjoy,
however,
and was by far my favorite part::

was
Florence + the Machine's performance
of 'Dog Days are Over'
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i friggin' love this song:

the performance of this had me wigglin'

on the couch next to Tomas as we were watching it.

i even sang along.

so, thank you, Florence, for

singing your reassuring song [...what felt like...] just for me.

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i also liked the mickey-mouse bobble head DJ guy.

he was awesome.

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alright,

i think that's enough

of the VMAs

[Viewing of Major Attention-whores]

moving on the the next piece of my convoluted brain-puzzle:

i

shall soon

be

getting

an
iphone.

i am excited for this,

but i hope it lives up to all its hype.

i want a white 4G.

when is this coming out????

does anyone know?

maybe i do want the black.

did anyone hear about the 'antenna' problem??

aren't they supposedly fixing it by October?

know any good apps?

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that's all I have to say about that.

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moving along to one of the most

random lines from one

of the most random books/movies

ever to be put into this random existence:

???

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tomas & I

went on a

triple date

Saturday

night

to:

i love saying this outloud:

KOTOBUKi!

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try it.

it's really fun.

no really:

KOTOBUKi!

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okay, well, anyway...

...I so looked forward to

my friends' company

& sushi-ing it up with Tomas.
**

most fun,

though,

was the time

i gave myself

saturday afternoon

preparing for dinner.

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got me a mani.

got me a pedi.

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me & my curlin' iron

worked together in harmony.

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...and my favorite, favorite part:

my all-black ensemble.

black & gold.

lovey dove dove.

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it made me feel so *put*together* because

as you can tell from this post, I am so not.

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even just the picture makes me happy.

the solid one-color is keeping me calm.

let me carry on...

[Josh, Elisa, Natalie & Carlo]

my fellow triple-daters
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both of these girls have their own classrooms this year.

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[pause]

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i'm happy for them.

i'm sad for me.

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okay, yeah.

i'll leave it at that.

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i had me Japanese beer:

Sapporo.

that was delicious.

I also had me edamame.

also delicious.

I had some of Tomas's sobo soup,

and yum yum yummy was that.

then the sushi:

my stomach was not in love.

any more than three pieces in my mouth,

and it would've been KOTO-PUKE-EE.

it tasted great,

but about two years ago, I got sick after a sushi dinner and barfed.

when you throw up about a pound of sushi,

you're body doesn't want it for a while, even if yo' brain does.

{{deep sigh}}

oh, well.

maybe some other day,

beloved california roll,

maybe some other day.

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a

*so*true*

three-block

cartoon:

{{quiet whimpering}}
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the dress i talked about here and ordered
came Saturday.
here it is hanging in my
"view-what's-new" spot in my room
to rev up my enthusiasm.
definitely gonna wear it wit'
black tights and black flats.
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i really really tell you,
thoughts of outfits
are really the only thing
that's keeping me sane lately.
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maybe it's this thesis class.
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maybe it's the late nights at this lousy restaurant job.
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maybe it's my frustration that i'm going to be subbing another year
when i should be with my own class already in my own classroom.
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my mood is so fucked today.
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i think i gotta nap right now.
i have work later at the goddamn restaurant,
and work with no nap makes Amanda a tired,
binge-eating, unfocused, cracked-out piranha.
YOU
WANT THAT SERVIN' YOU DRINKS
DURING CRAZY
MONDAY NIGHT FOOTBALL??
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change of topic:
Maegan from
...love Maegan
posted this link to an outfit post she wrote last week,
and
let me tell you,
this song speaks
volumes of truth.
good job, christina agui,
for making one listenable-song
on your new bionic album.
it's going to take a lot to undo
the damage you did after i heard the woohoo song.
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pretty much,
though, i love this song.
describes
how i felt
this week exactly.
i love when that happens.
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i think i want to be done now.
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a few more
sporadic randoms
that are
*ping*pinging*
around my
cerebral cortex::
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What am I going to be for Halloween??
maybe Lady Gaga in a meat dress.
no, but seriously...
...i wanna win $300 at the costume party i'm going to.
i also need a workable costume to wear at the restaurant.
yes, the manager said "mandatory costumes".
jerk.
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also, i have
SOOOOOO
many
*south*fla* pics.
I
wanted to create a slideshow,
but don't know how,
so...
...I think I'm going to post them in pieces.
we'll see later this week.
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lastly,
*2010* is going to be
over before we know it.
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notice my blog's title?
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i'm in the workings
of developing a *new*blog*
*
how did ya'll decide on your blog's title?
did you find that once you picked one
that sounded good,
you hated it, like, 15 minutes later?
haa haa!
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what blogging program do you all use?
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i think i'll talk more about this in a future post.
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time for me to like, legit, bolt from this 'puter.
i
leave
with
this
ending
image:

cute hair. cute sunny-g's. wish i had a louis. love the outfit, and the kinda zen surroundings, and homegirl's got my iphone.

this is my wooosah focus pic.

...WOOOOSAH...