*orange* & *pinks* & *yellow*

love my November.

i think November & i think my birthday.

i think November & i think sweaters, like, layers of sweaters.

i think November & i think thanksgiving,

special warm toasty feelings with family & people i love.
***

this year, i'm not so sure about "thanks"-"giving" for me.

it feels more like

"thesis"-"taking"

***

don't get me wrong,

i am extremely thankful

for my blessings, but

i wish i could experience the holiday

as it's meant to:

to relax,

to reflect,

to eat, laugh, & be merry

with family

& think on the past months of the year

and the few weeks left of the year,

and realize with all your soul, that you're blessed.

***

instead,

i'm probably working at the restaurant

from 11am to 9pm,

and

will be surrounded by stress & worry as to

the status of my thesis paper,

due within a few days after Thanksgiving.

***

college sucks the life out of me.

it sucks the life out of everyone i know who goes to one.

however,

ironically,

i'm thankful i've had the means to go to school,

unlike so many in the world,

i just wish it was actually beneficial to my being,

instead of just 'looking good on paper.'

***

***

anyway...

...November,

i think i like you.

i mean, i do, i like you.

this Nov, though, i

kinda wish i could just "UP" myself out of responsibilities

by hanging on to a bunch of *orange*pink*yellow* balloons,

sail through the sky,

and end up at a Thanksgiving tea party with

all those close to my heart, living and passed on.

up...up...and away, Novem.