in tears of exhaustion & pain...it's monday

Monday: a lame way to spend one-seventh of your life.

I heard this song on the radio last week:

...it flashed me back about 20 years.

Like, I type that: t-w-e-n-t-y years, and think that can't be true.

It's true, isn't it??

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So anyway, readers, it's Monday morning at the ass-crack of dawn, and I'm more exhausted than I predicted I was going to be.

I have to teach first graders about color poetry.

I'm getting observed for the third -and final - time tomorrow. Right now I should be typing up my lesson plan for that observation best I can.

Instead, I'm typing this.

Procrastination. It was with me allllll weekend.

I'm soooooo tired!!

Me =
I don't know what to do with all this exhausted lack of focus right now.

OMG!! <--I hate that I just typed this. So "not" what I type. That's how tired I am. Notice I'm not erasing it, just pining about why I typed it. Why am I the biggest "L"oser this world has ever known??!!??!!

It's just another *manic monday*.

I wish it was SATURDAY. Fuck it being SUNDAY.

Okay.

Love yous.

saturdaySPRiNGsunday *weekend snack*

this is my

*weekend snack*

of

choice:

i take:

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a golden delicious *yellow* apple

[if it's not ripe, then

wash it,

slice it up,

& leave it sitting out for an hour or two...yum!]
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SNYDER'S OF HANOVER mini pretzels

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Jif Creamy Peanut Butter

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...and WAH LAAA!

nutritious & delicious

'cause

ya'll know

*bikini season*

is comin' up!!

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...but who's stressin' it??

{{wink, wink}}

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Happy Weekend, buttercups!!

pretty sure this was me, in my *past life*

I was Asian.

I was thinner.

I wore dresses allll the time.

I looked perfect right-out-the-shower.

[pic here]

I must've been a bitch, though, because I came back as me, now.

[I think this kind of thinking is HELLA useless & a waste of time, but I'm only human, & sometimes I gotsta get it out of my head and somewheres else!!]

I'm already over it.

Love love LoVE...and {{deep breath in, deep breath out}} Friiiiiiiiday.

the *power* of the *bonsai*

it was

88 degrees here

in NYC yesterday.

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i'm not complaining.

i like it to be 98 degrees.

{thumbs up}

the hotter, the better for me.

[i don't really sweat.

i don't know what it is.

i'm an anomaly in my family.]

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this post is about how the *boyf* had off yesterday,

& went fishing with his buddy...

...his first real fishing of 2010

[and by real fishing i mean to an actual lake, or

body of water with fish in it.

the boyf would fish in a puddle after it rains

if he thought potential fish might be there.]

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okay, anyway...

so him & his buddy went real fishing,

& you know what?!?!

he

had

the only

fish

caught

of

the

day:

[excuse the photo's inadequate quality...camera phone pic...]

Do

ya'll

know

why??!!??!!

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...because of his lucky *bonsai*!!

i got Tomas the *bonsai* above for Valentine's day.

the original story of it

is found at the end of this post.
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i knew he'd catch a fish!

[not that it makes an animal lover like me happy that a fish was caught, but...]

i knew he'd catch a fish!

he's been

taking

good care

of that

old-man fisherman

underneath his *bonsai*

oooooOOOooooo...

the *power* of the *bonsai*
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Happy, Lovely, Powerful Thursday, to you

& you...& you & you & you!!

happy *52nd*, mom

Helene is *52* today!!

OMG!!

That's double my life, plus a year and a half!

Whoo!!

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below are some pics

from the life of

my mother,

the person who has given me life

& helped me survive it so far.

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*little Helene*

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*little Helene*

in her hat on Easter

circa 1962-1964

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haa haa!!

@ a 1960's *pool party*

[i kinda wish i could go to one]
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my mom, on left, with red socks &

my aunt sissy on right.

i love this picture because i look at my

mother here, & know exactly where i came from.
like i was born from her childhood, but mine too.

does that make sense??

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uh oh!

older Helene!!

any resemblance??

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my ma?

in a dancing recital?!?!

yep.

look at those gams!

with my aunt dawn, left.

[they've been friends since they were little little]
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70s Helene

in

'the Farah'

[R.I.P, Farrah Fawcett]

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mom, left & aunt dawn, right.

wow.

youth.

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70s/80s Helene, but

this is her to me, now.

such a sass-ball!

thank

you,

God,

for

her.
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mom & me,

boogie oogie oogie.

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mom & *bitt*,

brunettes in black
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happy happy happy 52nd year, mamacita!

I love you with all of my life.

God blessed me with you as my mom. Thank you for going through all your troubles, all your hardships -in the name of your two daughters - and for fighting through them to get to where you are now. You deserve only the best and loveliest things that this world has to offer, and I pray this year will bring you closer to all of them.

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Have a lovely Wednesday.

Help.

“There is a time when we must firmly choose the course which we will follow or the endless drift of events will make the decision for us.”

-- Herbert Prochnow
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okay, Herby P.

that's all well and good and i get that,

but how can you firmly choose the course

when you feel so fuckin'....

...yeah, those things.

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Help.

Have you ever felt HOT one minute & COLD the next minute about a decision you had to make??

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Have you ever felt so completely bipolar about a constant in your life, be it a job, a lover, an outfit, what to have for breakfast, etc.??

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Have you ever gone through your day so high on everything that makes up your life from, like, 11:34 a.m. to 12:13 p.m, to only then, the next friggin' minute -- at 12:14 p.m., become a panicky, turbulent mess inside because you fuckin' just don't know??!!??!!

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pleeeaaasssseee tell me you have.

you must tell me you have,

and

you must tell me all about it,

because i've been feeling so fuckin' torn.

torn & forlorn. Help.

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making *Easter* perogies

my mom

my *bitt*

&

I

made our *Easter* perogies

the other day.

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take a look:

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these are the tools you'll need:

fresh made dough:

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mom rolled it flat, & rolled it flat

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cut out *small circles* from the dough
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sprinkle the small circles with flour
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place a small, floured circle in the perogie press

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scoop a heaping scoopful of potato-yumminess into the middle

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***squEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEzE***

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scrape off the excess dough

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peel out your newly pressed 'rogie

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soon these few...

...became this many!!

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an army of perogies,

the fleet waiting to be fried:

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yeah...just like this...

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oh heavenly, Easter goodness!!

they were just what perogies should be.

i'm pretty sure i did my grandmother & Great-Grandmother Helen proud.

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Happy Monday-Funday!!

Happy...[& wacky]...Easter...eggs.

Happy Easter, all!!

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below

are the eggs we

colored over at my crib.

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NOW

I must spout my

DISCLAIMER:

I am a truthful person, and therefore do not want to

take credit for coming up with the faces seen on these

eggs. The cartoon faces shown below on my colored eggs were

copied by me from egg-faces I saw in an e-mail.

We had no red dye so I could not make any red, pink, purple, or orange eggs.

Apologies if any of those colors are your favorite, and if you are now disappointed

and/or appalled that there will be no eggs of those hues found in the pics below.

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with all that said,

ENJOY...

...my eggs.

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i hate when i get a headache like this. poor guy.

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he just might be my favorite.

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wittle mustachio

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[i think i might have been squeezin'im too tight]

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i feel like i've been

both of these guys

in this situation

at one point or another.

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these three must think

George Bush

is running for office again.
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three grouchies!

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i really just love these two.

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i guess the middle guy didn't get the joke...

...or maybe he got it a little too much.

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this was my glam girl egg & her lips were inspired by Maegan's super awesome, totally cool Easter egg post, but the ones i made like hers didn't come out half as good so...I'll just eat them & never have to show 'em to you!!

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I hope you enjoyed viewin' mah *eggies*.

I wish you & yours a blessed Easter if you celebrate, & an overall blessed Sunday, if you don't...or do...muah!!